Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Leap of faith.

this "TRUE MEN ARE...." bullshit has been going on for too long.
I'm about to tell you a story that is way beyond than that.
this is what i call a characteristic of a TRUE WOMAN that separates it from being just a GIRL.
I'm gonna write about it on how i saw it through my eyes and not through theirs.

There was once this woman who broke up with his boyfriend for reason that i cannot disclose here. so moving forward, let's hide this woman's name as Derpina and the boy's name as Derp.
they went through the normal process of a break-up wherein both saw significant others. let's not go through the details of that even though i know the nitty gritty details of both ends.

To make the long story short, here's what happened..
Derp suddenly announces that he has a new girlfriend on Facebook. All of Derpina's friends immediately notify Derpina about it and she checks it out herself and of course, she got hurt and broke down in front of Me and my friend inside the car. Derpina confessed that she ain't over Derp yet and she was just hiding it all along pretending that she was happy without him.

So i had this crazy idea to call Derp and ask about this new girlfriend that he has. While asking a couple of random questions about Derp's girl, Derpina makes nasty comments about Derp's answers to my questions and i already had an idea that he knew i was with Derpina. I invited him to go to the mall to hang with us pretending Derpina wasn't with us. Derpina had a moment of silence after that call that i made and cried so i called off the invite to Derp.

While smoking around the mall, we were brainstorming what to do. Either to go Karaoke, Pool or Road trip to a random place far away from civilization. Deprina suddenly says out of nowhere "Balikan ko kaya si Derp?" so the conversation went on...

Me : "ARE YOU FUCKN SERIOUS?!"
Derpina : "I dunno.." *frowns*
Me : "tangina, talon sa bangin yang gagawin mo. you can't just rush to his place and just ask him to get back with you ng ganun lang"
Derpina "i know. but--.."
Me : "but yes it may be a leap of faith but you never know.. you might be one of the lucky ones who get the sweeter love on the second time around. if it fails, Friend and I will still be here for you. we got yo back all the way."
Derpina : "..."
Me : "So, you wanna do it? are you sure?"
Derpina : "Yes."
Me : "then what the fuck are we waiting for then?"
*immediately puts out all cigarettes and rushes to the car*

I rang Derp and told him that Friend and I are gonna go to his place to pick him up so we could hang somewhere. Derpina parked in a spot where in Derp couldn't see it was her. Friend and I went down, grabbed both left and right arms accompanied him to the car and left them there.

After a few hours, Derpina calls us to ask where we are. Derpina had this sad voice on the phone so my friend and i got worried already. To my surprise, Derp was on the passenger seat and of course Derpina on the driver seat both with a smile.

I never knew what happened in between those times that we left them. both never gave me an idea what occurred inside the car. never cared to ask. as long as they are both happy. I'm just proud of Derpina and what she did. hands down. I fucking salute you.

Derpina was one of the lucky ones who got the sweeter and better relationship the second time. never been sweeter. it was a leap that was worth taking. So to all of you out there thinking about a second chance with your previous lover or a new lover.

take a leap of faith or believe in the law of attraction. i know it sounds stupid, but as you've read. you wont know unless you actually try. you never know, you might be one of the lucky ones who survive the fall.

Saturday, January 28, 2012

take it slow.

im'ma take it slow this time.
the ones that are hard to get are the ones that are worth it.
word mofucker.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Don't hate. Appreciate.

Today was a great day. let's start off with the moment i woke up.
So, i woke up today around 2:30AM and i felt like sleeping a bit more. I ended up waking up at 3AM rushing to prepare for work.

I grabbed whatever clothes that i saw around my room without thinking. I suddenly realized that i looked like a tree coz I was wearing a green polo shirt, brown slacks, brown top siders and a white suit. a lot of people noticed, i just said "thats how it is, earthly vibes today yo! haha". I think i still looked nice though. "i think?" fuck that. I'll wear whatever i wanna wear. haters gone hate.

Work was just smooth today, there were only a few calls and i had a lot of sales (86 Points). If i keep this up, i think i'd be able to pay all my debts before my birthday and finally save up for a house/car and my daughter's tuition fee next year. I didn't even notice the time passing by since I was having fun editing/proofreading my blog posts in the office and for some apparent reason I was smiling the whole day. It felt like I'm learning to enjoy my work bit by bit. Or it must be another reason?

My boss logged me out for us to talk about my stats, finally i got the "I'm very proud and happy about the changes i've been seeing in you, its great. keep it up!" that i was longing for. Also, I haven't been late for 2 months consecutive already. No absences also except for that half day last week due to intolerable body pain. I committed to my Boss and my Boss' Boss that i shall never be late or absent anymore even if i have to crawl to work with a knife stab on me. thats Me and Commitment for you. fo' sho!

Right after work, I immediately went home. Changed clothes and jogged for an hour plus shot a couple of baskets with some friends. So after an hour of doing that around the village, I went home to do my second part of my everyday routine. Targeting my core, arms and chest most of the time. If i do this 5 days a week, I'm pretty sure i'll have the body that i want sooner. DEREK BODY! DEREK BODY! DEREK BODY! LAW OF ATTRACTION MAN!

Yesterday....
ops ops ops! not assuming. Let's cross the bridge when we get there Marc.
Slowly. Slowly. Slowly. Slowly. :)


Monday, January 23, 2012

Getting back up

i'm already on my third week of working out and i see a bit of progress in my body already. especially on my core. Arms are getting bigger, biceps getting harder and legs are getting thicker! i'm lovin it. this'll be perfect just time for bora this march! LESSJET BRAAH! DEREK BODY YOU'LL BE MINE THIS YEAR!

its also been 2 weeks since i deactivated both my Facebook and twitter although the temptation is really hard to resist especially when im bored at home. no posts that i see on twitter and Facebook that'll stick to my mind the whole day bothering me. no bullshit. no mofos that irritate me. all i do now is work > gym > sleep the whole week. its fun, my world is more peaceful without social networking sites. well i still do have 2, this blog and also my formspring account. oh plus non stop youtube exploring, watching dance videos and also youtube stars that are so creative at using Adobe After Effects.

i promised myself, no girls for now. being new to the dating world is hard, i've just got out of a 4 year and 6 month relationship and that turned me into this clingy guy for stuff that happened it the past. i need to focus on myself first and get my old self back. the laid back, smooth and gentleman that i really am. make a lot of money, finally pay my debts and buy my Chevy Cruze or Isuzu D-Max. im'ma take it slow this time and make it happen. wait for an opportunity and take my time building a more stable foundation. i know where my life wants to go and my faith in the LAW OF ATTRACTION will bring me there.

but.. i got this text last friday from a person that i'd least expect to text "hey you, how are you this week? :) ". i barely know her but the feeling i got when my phone lit up purple was overwhelming and it felt like i've known her for years. i was glad actually. I'm not hooked on her but i can just remember how amazing she is. i immediately got my bestfriend's phone to call since i don't load credits anymore. we talked for hours. it felt great.

enough with the favors.

i've had enough of doing favors.
sacrificing my own just for your comfort.
this stops now.

you said it yourself, EVERYTHING AFTER THAT WAS VOIDED.
so fuck that.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

i miss.

i miss passionate kissing.

"Let's cross the bridge when we get there."

"Let's cross the bridge when we get there."

a simple sentence that means so much more than how you just read it.
it means, not thinking about what's gonna happen in the future.
it means, not assuming anything.
and also it means that there's a goal you have to achieve.

I've recently deactivated my Facebook and Twitter for some personal reasons.
Reasons that only i will have knowledge of. i wanna be alone for now.
I'm tired of sharing my burden to my friends.
they already have problems of their own, why share mine?
this is my way of teaching myself how to become stronger since the people around me wont be there forever.

Yes, I'm miserable right now. I'm down as hell and you can probably tell..........