Valentines Day is so Cliche.

It is, Solid.

its an excuse for everyone to be sweet for a day when you have to whole year to do so.

so, i've managed to actually survive this valentines day without doing anything. although yes i had plans to but it seemed like this aint really the time to do it and i got off the office at around 11pm.

Plus its inevitable to not actually remember what happened that exact date last year. i hate the feeling at night when you're already laid down on your bed staring at the ceiling. you proly know why since you experience it also. those are the times your mind works 100x than it normally does since you think about a lot of stuff, you reflect on what happened to day and what happened in the past or you're probably worrying about the future. its a nasty feeling but there's an bright side to it. it gives you the best of both worlds, you get to picture in your mind what you wanna happen and what you dont want to happen.

doesnt mean i didn't feel bad i dont have someone to spend this so called holiday. to be honest, it i did. while smoking outside my office, i saw a lot of couples. people with bouquets of flowers,cakes and gifts. they all seem so happy. walking along ayala was a bit depressing since everyone that i was walking with were couples. ( yes i walk everyday to and fro from edsa to pbcom tower, reason? go fuck yourself ) so the defensive system of my mind starts to turn on by itself and begins with the "what ifs" it brightened up my mood plus the cool breeze of the night.

Moving forward, i had a dream last night. it was about this person. so what i can remember is i surprised you by going to your office and leaving a bouquet of flowers, a card and a invitation to dinner in this specific restaurant on your desk with the card saying "Persistent lil' bitch aren't i?" everything that happened after that was just perfect to be the music video of "P.D.A. We just dont care" by john legend. we were playing around while walking, kissing everywhere. just all smiles and good times. sorry i cant remember anything else. if my crazy side kicks in, i might actually do it though.